H A T E

Hostility
Antripathy
Truth
Execration

Today I saw myself on video and it was sooo depressing, I wanted to cry.
I don't like seeing myself, but watching myself and realize how bad or how ugly you look, while 20 other kids are watching you too. They all saw how terrible, how ugly, how extremely bad I look.
I hate just about everything about myself, absolutly everything. And I hate the fact that I hate it, because I think it's really selfcentered to be so upset about yourself.
And is it really that bad , I wish that it was true that how I see myself is different than people see me. That what I see isn't really the true me.
HATE. I HATE everything about myself. Soo fat, so small, so happy. so small eyes, pointy nose, a face so big and round, too big of a butt, too big thighs, too fat leggs, too short arms and they're too fat, and my stomach. Don't even get me started, everything is wrong with that one, and everything attached to it. Hips, boobs, back. Holy! It's all wrong...
But, luckily, I can still reach the ground..

IT SUCKS.


I HATE IT.

I hate, therefore I am
I am, therefore I hate
- Marilyn Manson